50 / 50

50/50... the chances of having a boy or a girl...more or less.  I can't help but think girl... but that may be because we both are hoping for a girl.  And in hoping, think I am jinxing myself and that I'll have a boy.  Which of course, is fine too!  Boy or girl, we'll be happy... but I want to know now. Not in 4 weeks, not in 6 weeks, now please.  Sigh... I'm rarely this impatient, but I'm dying to call her (him!?) by name and buy her cute little dresses (overalls!?) and pick out bedding.  Now that I am finally convinced that we are really gonna have this baby (yay!) and not checking my panties every time I wee for a tinge of red. Having this peace of mind now, I'm ready to start registering!

It took me over a year to come to terms with the idea of registries.... I love having them for when I need to buy someone a gift because I know what they want or need.  Plus it reduces the risk of getting duplicates and junk they don't like or need.  But for myself, I couldn't help but feel it was like asking for presents... a huge no-no!!  But, after many hours of pouring over Emily Post's words of wisdom & reading countless others' posts of their own registry woes... I think it's a good thing.

With four sets of First Time Grandparents eager to spoil their new Grandbaby... it'd be good to tell them what we need, right?  Otherwise we may end up with no crib but 3 Diaper Pails. =)  Can I register for a breast pump!?  I'm so clueless....

Whoa, Momma!!

Heading into the 2nd Trimester and my boobs are heading into the next county. Darling husband loves it, of course... but can't seem to keep his hands off them. Ouch. Quit it. This shit better slow down or I'll be a stinking J cup come delivery.

That said... I took my a belly pic at 11w4d yesterday, I really don't think I should be this big yet. Darling hubby keeps reminding me, "Have you SEEN the size of me!?" Good point, he's huge. I really shouldn't be thinking about tearing quite yet, should I??
Here it is!

(Pictures removed while I figure out why my layout is all jacked up!!)

Happy Updates

It has occurred to me that for this blogging thing to work, I've actually got to write, don't I? Well I've got happy, wonderful news! In my last post, I wrote about it looking like I would ovulate from the right side... well I did, and got pregnant just a few days after I wrote that post! Here's the details:

9dpo - early morning HPT test, kind of thought I saw a line... but it was after the time limit. Had already scheduled blood work scheduled and she submitted some to the lab for an Hcg quantitative test. Later that evening, I got nice solid positive test on an HPT, then another, then at DH's insistence, on the digital test. I was over the moon!

10dpo - Nurse Freckles called with the results of my Hcg blood work and the result was 10... positive but still low. Years of TTC has showed me that it's really early for a high number and you've got to start somewhere... so I'm not worried.

Subsequent blood work shows great rises on P4 & Hcg... I'm pregnant! At 6w4d, we went for a viability ultrasound and were SO relieved to find that the baby was in the right place and measuring a few days ahead. The tech surprised us by flipping on the speakers when she found the heartbeat... we got to hear it!! I had no idea that was possible that early... I babbled, grinned and cried, it was awesome.

A few days after this scan, we headed North for our wedding. We shared the happy news with or family & friends and had an amazing wedding. Everything was near perfect and we were so very happy with the way our lives are heading <3>

I am now almost 11 weeks... we had our second scan last week and got to see our tiny little bean kick and wave... totally amazing. We are so very happy. I'm having a bit of a rough time with nausea and vertigo, but all in all... so worth it.

Six Weeks & Counting...

Wow. Six weeks to the day left until the wedding, I'm starting to get nervous!! Nervous excited though, not nervous cold feet. :) The trip to NH went wonderfully, I had an awesome time with my friends & family & was spoiled rotten... life is good. The dress fits perfectly & I still love it... life is very good!

Monday marked the continuance of testing at INF office; Nurse Freckles had a little trouble finding a vein again, even last week's gusher wasn't cooperating. So, today it looks like I've got a track mark - but it seems to be fading. Also had the physical portion of my testing & all is well! It is looking like I will ovulate one egg (non-medicated) from my right ovary; I am pleased about this as it is the left side tube that is blocked. OPK is almost positive, maybe tonite... Welcome to Nookie Fest.

I am very sidetracked today... so much to do and so little time to do it! Oh, yay... quitting time! Off to buy my honey a birthday gift!

Stress? What stress??

So everyone keeps asking me, 'are you all stressed out yet?' Nope. Sure aren't! I have been hoping to avoid the whole Bridezilla thing & so far seem to have succeeded... yay go me! Everything is coming together for the wedding, the bridegroom is still supportive & fabulous, my family is eager to help... no stress! Well, almost none. I am stressed about money, but that is nothing new. I am confident that we will find a way to pull another 2 or 3 grand out our asses in the next few weeks, but are running out of stuff to sell! Sigh... not worth stressing over tho is it?

On a good note (oh, I DO love a good note), I am flying home to NH tomorrow for my fitting & for my bridal shower. I am a little uncomfortable with the whole bridal shower thing...though I've been to many, I've never had a party thrown just for me & it's weird! My stepmother & BFF conspired to get me up there for the fitting so they could do this, it's very sweet :).

This week has marked the beginnings of a full month's testing at the INF doctor. Nurse Freckles found a new vein that she can get into easily (note to self...remember that one!) & Nurse Bosom did a scan and said the antral follicle count looked good. Soooo glad about that, can't grow more eggies if was low! I won't have the results of the blood work until I meet w/ Dr. HaventMetHimYetSoCantGiveHimAFunnyName at the end of August; though they did know that I am immune to Chicken Pox. Sweet.

Next, please.

Feeling a bit negative today... but trying to shake it. A few days late & was just starting to feel hopeful when I started spotting, instead. Oh well. Assuming this progresses in the normal manner, at least I can call the FS today & schedule this month's battery of testing... I really think I should be more excited about this.

Baby Week

What is it that makes me always turn to Discovery Health or TLC when there are baby shows on? It was Baby Week on DH this weekend & I kept it on while I did other things around the house. Watching it makes me feel jealous, heartbroken, sad & it always makes me cry... but I can't look away. It's like a train-wreck. I am happy for those people, I love to see the stories of miracles & much wanted families; I love to see the look on a new mother's face when she first hears her baby cry... I want that feeling so badly that my heart hurts with it.

When will I learn just to turn it off?